i am at kaylas.

indeed i am.

and apparently we are going to hell just for this weekend.

or i am going to hell i guess..?

anyone wish to meet me and my homie there?

yea you wish...

psh.

yus!

kbye.

L

UPDATE TIME...

...still hate him....

... still more than anything....

... moving on....

...slowly but surely...

...still hard though....

...for everything he did....

... its hard...

... and will be for a long time...

i got flowers for the first time in my life on sunday...

someone left them on my car...

it was cute.

they were from a boy...  obviously....

k bye.

L

... i guess it is like the book....

...because it cant be fixed.

... because its beyond repair.

....everything really is broken...

... into a million little pieces.

im going to hate him forever.

for what he did.

for everything.

the lies.

the durgs.

the girls.

cheating.

im going to hate him forever.

for what he did.

Lauren

... dont know what to do.

... dont know what to think.

... dont know what to say.

... dont know what to feel.

my world has officially crumbled beneath my feet.

when you think you've hit rock bottom, it is then that you fall even further than you think you could ever fall...

lauren

well lets start the show...

ladies and gents, boys and girls, you are here to witness, up close and personal that... LOVE SUCKS.

ok for starters...

so last week i find out some things about trevor...

#1. while i was at school on monday (the day before he left) he was not w/ alex, as he said he would be, he was with drisana. nice, smooth... especially after the fact that he told me he didnt talk to the damn girl... right. so, she leaves 20 mins before i arrive, god know what they did. so i show up, and he gives me my bday present, and tells me he loves me, and how he wants to be together forver. the night goes on w/ cuddling, kissing, and cheesy "i love yous". when we are saying goodbye ant 9:15 pm i am in hysteria. i am BAWLING. so i leave. while i am at home crying, he is calling kallie to come and "chill, and say goodbye" right. another person i am assured he dosnt talk to (especially after the incidnet that she was hid in his closet in the middle of the pm... odd maybe so) so yes trevor, honey, thats classy, 3 girls in one day.

#2.as i am recieving multiple letters a week, saying how much i am missed/ wanted/ loved/wanted to be with forever...miss jessa is also recieving letters along those same lines...now how god damn CUTE. ha no!

what the hell goes through guys minds?! is it a game to try to hurt people?! OBVIOUSLY.

oh no no no the week does not stop there.

so i decide to try to break away from trevor, and take grant up on hanging out after school. and he knows i have/ had a little thing for him. we had an awesome time. we went to the commons, and sat by the beach and talked, and i found a 4 leaf clover. as we were heading back, he grabbed my hand. we held hands the way back. i was happy.

so wed. rolls around, and i havent seen grant all day? coincedence? maybe. dont really think much of it.

thurs i get a call from meghan. all night grant was grinding, and following around like a bazilion girls. when confronted by meghan, he proceeds to tell her that he simply holds hands w/ everyone. its just somthing 'friends' do... yea i dont butok. i love how guys u think would never hurt anyone, and u think are just soo nice are the worst.

I AM DONE WITH BOYS.

but why the hell are they so self centered? answers please

untill i calm down.

L